(above is an image from a beautiful shoot yesterday. the series is for a magazine, so i am sorry i can’t show you yet, but i wish i could. luckily this shot doesn’t quite fit, so here it is, out in the wild.)

you might know that i am an aspiring film maker. of course, i haven’t made much yet, a few little music/inspiration films here and there. but nothing of thought or substance.

i am always thinking about films. ideas for scripts and scenes and filmed moments. my films would have their roots in my pictures. that soft, whimsical youngness and sunlight. but with a louder voice. one that gets into your mind and i think you’ll either love it, or it’ll unnerve you. maybe you’ll even hate me. i don’t care, i just want to change and inspire people.

my father was a filmmaker when he was younger. i remember not long ago watching a cowboy film he directed, wrote and acted in. it was made a long time ago. he won a lot of awards for his films. and even though we are very different, it’s nice to know my passion came from somewhere.

i have a book i am filling with ideas for short films. i want to do this. and if i want to do something i will, i’m that kind of person.

george and aria (the pretty boy and girl from the pictures on the beach) came over the other night for a dinner party (slash going away party). i cooked spaghetti bolognaise for dinner and heart shaped lemon tarts with cream for dessert. we played monopoly and i rolled a 5 eight times in a row. then we went on the roof and watched the city and took pictures. i realise how much i love making other people happy. it is the most wonderful feeling.

i am leaving to new york on wednesday. can’t tell you why but it will be life-changing. i am bringing matt with me. it’s not sinking in yet, sometimes it will a little bit and butterflies will swarm around my tum, and then they’ll be gone. can you imagine? i can’t!

i’m going to take a hell of a lot of pictures for you guys. i can’t resist the chance to show this off!